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Go to 'catagories' to have a look at some of my blogs on adoption, trauma, pain, disability and some of life's difficulties, where I write about finding hope from the pain and trauma, giving you encouragement and information to move on yourself and grow your own soul just a little bit more x

60 days

7/5/2020

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It's 60 days that I've been in.
The world outside has changed and anxiety has set in.
People's live changed forever by a pandemic, unseen and frightening.
This virus killing over 30,000 of us in the UK.

It's 60 days that I've been in.
There are only somany things you can do indoors.
I read, write, talk on the phone
But nothing beats a hug.

It's 60 days that I've been in. 
I'm unsure when it will be safe to go out again.
Will we walk forever apart from others, face masks on.
Always an air of mistrust.

It's 60 days that I've been in.
My daughter having the virus was scariest.
So ill, yet helpless here.
Not able to care for my child.

It's 60 days that Ive been in.
Im not sure how I can ever go out again.
The fear has set in, anxiety high.
​Will I ever feel safe again. 
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Responsibility

9/4/2020

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This moment in time, not experienced before
Has made us inspect, inspire and explore,
To ensure that our movements are justified and true,
Considering responsibility in everything we do.

We inspect what were doing in finest detail
To see if it’s essential and what it entails.
We consider how our actions impact
Our need for action is (hopefully) based on fact. 

We have to consider the old and the young, 
The teens and the babies that are still in mums tum,
We have to remember that each action we take
Could if wrongly managed, be a huge mistake.

We try to inspire those that care for us too,
We clap and sing; who’s inspired you?
We want to know that when life returns
We have been responsible participants in all concerns.

We seek and explore new ways now of living
Of different ways to be kind and forgiving.
Those people we once blindly dismissed 
We've now had to acknowledge, they still exist.

It was easy to pretend when we had busy lives
That the people that shunned us and had out their knives
Were not worth the thought of forgiving, but then again,
Now in this quiet time, our thoughts turn to them.

So when we are through with Covid-19, 
Our earth renewed, the air fresh and clean,
We’ll remember with sadness, huge numbers that died,
How  indiscriminate the virus was, can’t be denied. 

Let's start afresh with new insight on life
And practice new ways to share with delight
The closeness we felt when we rejoined those we love
With kisses and laughter, a tear and a hug.

When this is done, there still will be 
Those isolated and victimised, indiscriminately, 
So let’s open our hearts like we did at this time
And continue the lessons we’ve learnt, and be kind. 

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Coronavirus ... Musings ...

3/4/2020

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What an unsettling time. I had only just returned from my life-changing trip to Uganda, when the Coronavirus hit the UK. I was still in full swing, telling everyone about it and selling the gorgeous items we brought back, to sell and raise more funds for Suubi Medical Centre.

I went home with a chill after the market that Fiona and I held on March 8th 2020. I stayed home as I had a cold and rumblings of the virus frightened me. I felt very vulnerable due to my low immune system, so cancelled going to both really big and exciting fundraising events I had planned to attend.

I am relieved I did though. Every day, and sometimes in the night I would wake up with palpitations as I was so anxious. I had a tight chest but I had a runny nose and swollen glands so felt fairly sure it was just a cold. Anyone else think every little symptom of anything might be the virus? I know I wasn't alone.

My son had to stay home from work to protect me. He has been brilliant. He has ensured that he has done every single thing in his power to keep me safe.

Because of this, 26 days now into my self isolation, hearing neighbours chatting away outside, going to their essential (I'm sure) workplaces, popping out to the shops, taking a walk, exercising the dogs etc etc .... I feel safe, I have been indoors long enough to know I have not got the virus because neither my son or myself have been anywhere to catch it. So this morning, waking up with a raging headache, I am relieved to know I just have a headache. The huge anxiety has gone, but around me, now, over 500 people are dying a day.

I pray everyone is trying their best to stay safe. I know many family and close friends are. My Ugandan family is also in self isolation, although that comes with many more difficulties than it does in our country.

Now is the time to grow your own soul in ways you haven't before. I am sure everyone is looking at life through very different lenses right now. I know I am. 
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