Let me tell you whats happened.
I have been really poorly .... but I'm mending like we all have to, if we want to move on.
I suffered a huge breakdown about six months ago ... it came on gradually but culminated in a huge collapse with the need for support from the mental health team and me being diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder, on top of my Chronic Depression, Fibromyalgia (CFS) and Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (M.E).
Not a great time for my family or friends and a disastrous time for me to be honest.
I lost people I thought were my closest friends, but I also found who my true friends are ... the ones that knew me, know me, could see past my illness and breakdown and know that ultimately I am the same good person inside that I have always been.
Anyway, six months or so rest on and I am doing great.
This is what I am doing now.
I am still resting trying to care about myself more but I have reconnected with the homeless community again, in a more positive manner now though by supporting those that want to move forwards with becoming vendors for The Big Issue, by taking a step up.
I am also helping in a small part with a great little local charity called Next Steps Development. They support young adults with learning and mental health disabilities in their Training Centre, to develop new skills, confidence and self esteem. What an awesome bunch of guys they are!
I have two peripherally homeless guys living with and around me at the moment as well as a huge daily visiting dog, am supporting my awesome son who is, well, my hero - a young man with intellect, maturity, kindness and respect, and I am enjoying spending time with my friends, whether by grabbing a quick bite to eat with them or spending hours laughing and drinking orange juice and lemonade in a certain establishment where we sprawl out on the sofas and chat to everyone around us! I am listening to music, my illustrator is currently helping me finish my first book, my second book has been started and my third in my head too, so life is looking up again.
I hope life is good for you too.
Remember, if life was fulfilling all the time we would never appreciate the joy of reaching goals and getting through the tough times and coming out the other side.